Hello all,
Happy Diwali to all of you...!
Hope you have a noise free diwali..
Today I am going to tell you a little secret of mine.I have realized that by not telling people this secret people have a different opinion about me when it comes to God and its high time I reveal this secret or else it would just get worse.
Now in the earlier post I have mentioned that I changed as a person since 2011...Yes I did..But I also changed my approach towards God.
My family generally has the impression that I don't pray and hence I am being disrespectful to God OR that I am upset or angry with God..Which is totally untrue.I am not an atheist..I strongly believe in God
The only difference is that prior to October 2011 I would pray to all Gods...Ganpati,Shiva,Laxmi Jesus..I would go to gurudwaras and pray..So that just tells you that I am not religious..
But since October 2011 I have stopped praying...No it has nothing to do with me being upset with God for being in depression..! Its just that I have become Monotheistic.(which means that I follow only one God!)
Yes I follow only one God..Sai Baba..and I choose to be loyal..
Sai Baba always said "Sabka Maalik Ek Hain" and "Allah Maalik"
Which means that all Gods lead you to "Allah" the creator....But its upto you to decide whom you want to follow..I choose to follow only one..Some are polytheistic (following multiple Gods) but not me...
Ever since I have decided my path...I feel kinda heartbroken and guilty to pray to any other God..
I just want to be loyal to the God I follow..Never cheat the God by going to any other.I just don't feel good when I am asked to pray to any other God..And I still am not religious..
I will take today's example everyone at home did laxmi pooja except me because I don't like to pray to anyone other than Sai Baba..Its like betraying the God..If you surrender to a God completely and start following him then you will actually feel as if you are betraying if you start following another God..So yes this is the reason I don't pray to any other God..Because I feel extremely uncomfortable while doing so and hurt as well.
That doesn't mean that I am disrespecting other Gods...The other Gods are just indifferent to me..
Not too long ago my brother forced me to pray to Ganpati when we used to get it at home..And I touched the feet of the Ganpati out of fear of my brother...And it Hurt!! I kept apologizing to Baba for it and honestly it still hurts.
Recently too my Uncle (Mama) had Ganpati but I didn't pray.I told my father before we left to go to my uncle's home in Mulund that "I will not pray" And this is why!!
So now you know why I don't pray to any other God..
I only go to a Sai Baba Temple now..And I still don't pray! All I do is look at Sai Baba's photo...and just keep looking at it! He definitely knows what I want without joining my hands..And I feel the special level of comfort when I am in front of his photo or even when I see the word "Sai" anywhere..
The feeling is amazing! The warmth I have in my heart is unexplainable.
So to all who ask me to pray to any other God you know my answer now and you now also know why..So please stop asking me to pray to any other God..It just makes me feel uncomfortable as I have said before..
Love to all..
Bye for now,
Will be back with another post soon!
Happy Diwali to all of you...!
Hope you have a noise free diwali..
Today I am going to tell you a little secret of mine.I have realized that by not telling people this secret people have a different opinion about me when it comes to God and its high time I reveal this secret or else it would just get worse.
Now in the earlier post I have mentioned that I changed as a person since 2011...Yes I did..But I also changed my approach towards God.
My family generally has the impression that I don't pray and hence I am being disrespectful to God OR that I am upset or angry with God..Which is totally untrue.I am not an atheist..I strongly believe in God
The only difference is that prior to October 2011 I would pray to all Gods...Ganpati,Shiva,Laxmi Jesus..I would go to gurudwaras and pray..So that just tells you that I am not religious..
But since October 2011 I have stopped praying...No it has nothing to do with me being upset with God for being in depression..! Its just that I have become Monotheistic.(which means that I follow only one God!)
Yes I follow only one God..Sai Baba..and I choose to be loyal..
Sai Baba always said "Sabka Maalik Ek Hain" and "Allah Maalik"
Which means that all Gods lead you to "Allah" the creator....But its upto you to decide whom you want to follow..I choose to follow only one..Some are polytheistic (following multiple Gods) but not me...
Ever since I have decided my path...I feel kinda heartbroken and guilty to pray to any other God..
I just want to be loyal to the God I follow..Never cheat the God by going to any other.I just don't feel good when I am asked to pray to any other God..And I still am not religious..
I will take today's example everyone at home did laxmi pooja except me because I don't like to pray to anyone other than Sai Baba..Its like betraying the God..If you surrender to a God completely and start following him then you will actually feel as if you are betraying if you start following another God..So yes this is the reason I don't pray to any other God..Because I feel extremely uncomfortable while doing so and hurt as well.
That doesn't mean that I am disrespecting other Gods...The other Gods are just indifferent to me..
Not too long ago my brother forced me to pray to Ganpati when we used to get it at home..And I touched the feet of the Ganpati out of fear of my brother...And it Hurt!! I kept apologizing to Baba for it and honestly it still hurts.
Recently too my Uncle (Mama) had Ganpati but I didn't pray.I told my father before we left to go to my uncle's home in Mulund that "I will not pray" And this is why!!
So now you know why I don't pray to any other God..
I only go to a Sai Baba Temple now..And I still don't pray! All I do is look at Sai Baba's photo...and just keep looking at it! He definitely knows what I want without joining my hands..And I feel the special level of comfort when I am in front of his photo or even when I see the word "Sai" anywhere..
The feeling is amazing! The warmth I have in my heart is unexplainable.
So to all who ask me to pray to any other God you know my answer now and you now also know why..So please stop asking me to pray to any other God..It just makes me feel uncomfortable as I have said before..
Love to all..
Bye for now,
Will be back with another post soon!
0 comments:
Post a Comment